my first blog in a year...

i sorta miss blogging and interacting on the various social networking sites that i used to be a part of. i really feel like i got a lot out of them while i was participating but right there at the end, everyone's annoyance with me just became glaringly obvious and the whole process was more hurtful than helpful. so yeah, like a moron i went and deleted my entire profile. sometimes i regret doing this. mostly just because of the loss of information that i had amassed over the years but also a lot of it has to do with the loss of friendships and the loss of support. but like i said earlier, it was more harmful to my self esteem than anything right at the end so, just knowing myself the way i do, i know that this was the best thing for "ME" to do. i wish that i could go back in time and maybe just stop posting so much when things started getting bad with me. apparently i mistook the friendliness that i received on that site as genuine and i honestly thought that all of those people cared about me and about my well-being and about what was going on in my life at that time. boy don't i feel like a fool...

so anyway, this is the first blog i've posted on this site in a year and with good reason. just like on the other site, i really didn't have much of anything positive to say. yeah, i'm still unemployed. i'm in school right now and hopefully i'll be able to graduate after spring semester 2010. i have plans to move far, far away from alabama after that but i'm not going to post the specifics here because i don't want to jinx the situation or anything. besides, the only person who's probably reading this blog already knows about my plans anyway, lols!! :~D