did i do a bad thing??

since katie and i have been living together we've been a "paycheck-to-paycheck" sort of household and the majority of the time it's the NEXT paycheck that we're living off of. (which means that things get shut off and have to be reconnected and fees assessed ~ yadda yadda yadda ~ and this puts us even more in the hole.) this has been driving me absolutely INSANE especially considering that now our income is DOUBLE what MY income was, we only have ONE car and i was making it just fine WITHOUT katie around. (so... wtf happened here???) i'll tell you what happened. katie sucks with money. i mean REALLY sucks with it. not only does she not know when to save money or HOW to save money but she is CONSTANTLY eating out. CONSTANTLY! i cook things for her because she asks me to so she can take leftovers to work for lunch but then they sit in the fridge or freezer until they rot and she eats burger king or sonic or mcdonalds or whatever, spending all our money on junk food when we have perfectly good, healthy, yummy delicious meals ALREADY FIXED at home.

also, we've been trying to save money so that katie can get a car. for some reason when she and i moved in together she GAVE her ex-girlfriend her car. just... GAVE it to her. idk why... but she did. and ever since then i've had to let her use MY car for everything. (i don't like sharing my things, even when i'm in a relationship. i'm very very bad at this and it makes me extremely angry when i'm FORCED to do this.) earlier this year katie decided to get a part time job so she could save money and get a car. but then she told them that she could work 3rd shift AND her days off and she was basically killing herself instead of setting limits and saying she could work 2-3 days/week. so she got burned out really quickly and got mad at me when i would try to encourage her to stick with it (because everyone else was telling her that i was using her and that if anything *I* should get a second job since she's helping to support *MY* child. um, hello there, i get child support for that...) and eventually just stopped going in.

so then last month she decided that she would try to get another part time job and would ONLY work on her off days and that money would ONLY go towards a car. nothing else. it would go directly into a savings account where it could earn interest and where she couldn't just blow it. so she went to the interview, got the job and just needs to call the lady back when she gets a pair of black slacks and some non-skid shoes. this was a month ago. and she still hasn't done it.

we also decided that when she got her stimulus check it would go into the savings account and she wouldn't touch it. it would be for her car and that's it. well, her check came in. and it just so happened to be the same day that kensie's glasses broke. so she spent part of it on that and blew the rest. i mean BLEW it. clothes, eating out, expensive magazines, blah, blah, blah... just BLOWING MONEY on NOTHINGNESS!!!

so, now MY stimulus check is here. i have lots of medical bills that are way overdue that i'd like to take care of. i also owe my grandparent's some money for a u-haul they helped us rent when we moved back in february. this is what we had planned on spending this money on. we PLANNED this. but now that HER money is gone (because *SHE* BLEW IT!!!) she's expecting me to spend MY money on getting her this $4,000 truck (which is newer than my car by the way!!!) because she believes that she can't get anything cheaper than that!!! she wants to put my $900 down on the car and have a $300 a month carpayment in addition to an extra insurance payment and more gas!!! heck, i haven't even paid MY insurance bill in two months so how the fuck does she expect us to be able to afford some shit like that???

so today i went to the bank and opened a savings account that she knows nothing about. i opened it up with $25 and they gave me $20 on top of that which means that i have $45 sitting in there right now. it earns interest quarterly (11% i think?) and transfers $15 into it from my checking account every other week. i'm not going to tell her about this at all. it isn't any of her business. and i'm going to be putting MORE than the $15 every other week into it too if i can get away with it and see how long it takes for it to start adding up. **sigh** maybe i can finally surprise her with a $1,000 car by the end of summer and she'll shut the fuck up about that damn piece of shit $4,000 truck!