ok, so i'm an asshole. so what??

watcha gonna do about it, huh? nothin', that's what! you're just gonna sit there and take all that i have to dish out because you LOVES it!!!

ok, forreals yo... here's the scoop of the day. last week i went to my new pcp to take a glucose tolerance test. i guess i passed, idk... and then today i was sent to a cardiologist to request a tilt table test. he said eat more salt. that's it. no tilt table test. just... eat more salt.

i'm waiting to see if i can get my surgeon's office to order some bloodwork before my 18 month follow-up because i REALLY want to see what my vitamin d level is before i begin taking this vitamin d. i went to see my new pcp this morning because they told me last week that they would do those labs and just to bring the list with me when i came but when i got there the doctor started acting all snotty and saying he wasn't about to argue with the insurance company about thousands of dollars worth of labs that it hasn't even been proven that i need, blah, blah, blah. so basically i need to find a NEW new pcp because this one clearly does NOT understand the importance of regular labwork for post-op gbs patients.

and here i sit, with a prescription for a salt pill, debating about filling it or not. the cardiologist thinks it'll help me to stop falling down all the damn time. but if i start gaining weight then i need to back off and only take one of them instead of two. GAINING WEIGHT??? are you fucking kidding me??? oh HELLS no!!! i don't want to take anything that's going to make me gain weight! in fact, for my height i should really weigh about 10 pounds LESS. i'd LIKE to one day see this "ideal weight" just so i can say that i saw it but unfortunately, i lack that kind of motivation. (lols, i lack the motivation to lose 10 pounds omgs, that's too rich!!!)

**sigh** that's about it i guess... for now anyway.