it feels so good to purge

...toxic relationships and prying eyes from my life. i only wish that i could somehow make THIS blog selectively private but idk how to do that. (wish i could block all the "anonymous" people from viewing it.)

*sigh* okay, so what that's all about is the fact that i went and made my oh.com profile private and also deleted about 8 pages worth of "friends" (<--mostly people i don't even know or backstabbing bitches.) so that left me with about 16 "friends" which is quite alright with me. hell, that's WAAAYY more than i have in real life! and of those people, i really only talk to about 2-3 of them on a semi-regular basis.

so, wanna know what finally happened last night? well, my mom kept telling me to take a cab so i finally hung up on her and called my grandmother. we talked for about 15-20 minutes (well really, i cried for about 15-20 minutes and she tried to figure something out.) so she and i decided that when i got off of work i'd go pick kensie up from the ymca and we'd go home and wait for them to show up and take us to the emergency room.

meantime, my mom (aka: nosy bitch that likes to start shit!) goes around calling everybody she can possibly get in contact with at my job and tells them EVERYTHING!!!! AND, she called the ymca about 10 different times and told them everything as well ANDDDD... she fucking called the police!!! stupid dumbass bitch!!!

so now today i'm having to deal with people staring at me and asking me if i'm okay and shit!!! god i hate that bitch!!!!

well, i got to the ymca and there was a crowd of about 5 people standing in the hallway blocking the sign-out sheet and asking me if i'm okay and if i need to sit down and if they can do anything for me. WTF YO??? no dude, i most certainly am NOT okay! and no!!! you can't do anything for me!!! just fucking get out of my way so i can get my kid and go home!!!!

so they went to get kensie for me and followed me out to my car and were undoing my seatbelt and turning my ignition off and trying to take my keys away from me! FUCK MAN!!!! i'm not drunk or anything i just have a goddamn migraine!!! AND YOU'RE NOT MAKING IT ANY EASIER FOR ME EITHER!!!! just leave me alone and let me go home!!!

finally they let me go but they insisted on having someone follow me home (RETARDS!!!) so then my grandparents got to my house and took me and kensie to the er at about 7pm. and we sat there until fucking midnight before i could get a shot because the waiting room was PACKED!

well, the shot didn't do shit for me. i was able to get some sleep but when i woke up i still had the migraine and i took a zomig thinking it might help (and because i am supposed to take it every morning right now any way because i'm expecting flo any day now.) so i texted katie and explained to her that i had a migraine last night and that my grandparents drove all this way to take me to the er so that i wouldn't have to disturb her last night but that the shot didn't work and i still had a migraine and would she mind going to med plus with me first thing this morning so i could get another shot.

at first she agreed but then she started calling me an addict and telling me that nobody has this many migraines and blah blah blah. so i told her to do some research because yes, it IS possible to have this many migraines. it's a DISEASE, not a choice or an addiction! YES, i got hooked on pain PILLS but that's because i have MIGRAINES and don't always have a DRIVER so i can get a SHOT to get rid of it right away!!! so she starts arguing with me first thing in the morning and all the while my head is throbbing and i'm trying to get kensie ready for picture day so i finally just told her to nevermind and that i'd just take a pill instead because i wouldn't want to put her out but to please educate herself in case the next person she's with also suffers from migraine disease.

so then she goes off on me AGAIN and starts calling me ungrateful (for what? because i don't appreciate her arguing with me all the damn time when all i need is for her to walk into med plus and "claim" to be my driver???) and tells me to just lose her number. WTF!!! and she goes on and on and on and ON!!!! and the whole time i was just sitting there blow drying kensie's hair and had no clue that my phone kept going off and she was getting more and more pissed off when i didn't respond to her.

anyway, that's my day. fucking sucks. my head is exploding (STILL!!!), i'm waiting for a call back from my neurologist, my mom is a nosy-ass damn pot stirring bitch and basically, the rest of my life is falling apart.